Estoy cansada

Estoy cansada !! simplemente cansada de ser la persona que carga con las lagrimas de los demás.
Cansada de no poder expresar lo que siento, por miedo, por verguenza, por inseguridad, por no quererme lo suficiente.
Estoy cansada de sentir que me hago la victima cada vez que siento que me pasan a llevar y tomar todo a la ligera.
Estoy cansada de no ser lo suficientemente cuerda para notar que las cosas no estan bien.
Estoy cansada de sentir que le hago daño a la gente cada vez que digo lo que pienso.
Estoy cansada de sentir que a nadie le importa lo que confiezo.
Estoy cansada de sentir que pienso solo en mi, en mi, en mi, cuando no me doy el tiempo de ordenar mi cabeza ni mis sentimientos.
Estoy cansada de que la gente sufra cuando yo sufro.
Estoy cansada de engañarme a mi misma.
Estoy cansada de preocuparme por la gente que sufre con mi sufrimiento antes de preocuparme de mi propio sufrimiento.

Estoy cansada de escribir...

And I, I don't know what to do, what to say

Ok, so it hasn't been a nice month... I'm all fine, I guess, but there are some issueas around me, family, friends... I just don't know what to do.
My mom got pregnant, at first she got crazy, so sad, confused, scared... and I hide my feelings... she's happy now, loving the baby inside her... and I'm happy with that.
Some of my friends have problems, they feel sad, insecure, they have low self-steem and as I depend of my friends' happiness I feel blue.
So I just don't know what to do or say to make them happy !!
I'm starting to think I'm not a good friend and that makes me feel miserable.

Dear friends: I LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH... never doubt about it... is just that sometimes I don't have the words to express my feelings and I don't know how to make you feel good, but I do love you trust me, you're everything to me.

A good life... dreams, issues and having fun

Well... I was thinking that I described "good life" as dreams-issues-having fun...
Ok, it looks really simple, but is not that easy.
I have dreams:
I dream about traveling around the world, helping poor people and making little children's life so happy.
I dream about living in England, find a hottie-cute-intelectual-musician-writer-english man, marry him, have kids (2 boys and a girl) name one of the boys "Thomas" and let my husband choose the other two, live in a beautiful big house on England's country side, have a male cat called "Artie" and a San Bernardo (my children will name it).

Those are dreams, right? But what if I don't have the money or the opportunities to travel around the world and do that? what if I meet that english guy but he doesn't get marry...or what if he does but he doesn't want a San bernardo?
I guess dreaming feels good, but ruin your dreams suck.

Oh issues... a life has to have issues, that's how we grow up, that's how we learn, that's how we find ourselves... that's the beauty of issues.
but what if you're stubborn and you don't listen to the teaching?

And having fun... we can have fun all the time... it just depends of you. But what if having fun means hurting someone else, leaving behind your family, avoiding your friend's problems....?

"What if" that stupid phrase has ruined everything !! Now I'm scared of dream, issues and fun time... Don't want to fail.

Smile

When you're smilin'
When you're smilin'
The whole world smiles with you

So just remember to smile smile smile,
And turn the world around.

Have you noticed the power of a simple smile?
Is MAGICAL !! Is amazing what you can do with a true-hearted little smile
You can cheer someone
You can light up someone's day
You can give love
You can give care
You can give happiness
You can give peace
You can give hope
And just with a warm and nice little smile :)
Isn't it beautiful?
So... what is that frown doing in your face ?? throw it away and get a Smile