Estoy cansada !! simplemente cansada de ser la persona que carga con las lagrimas de los demás.
Cansada de no poder expresar lo que siento, por miedo, por verguenza, por inseguridad, por no quererme lo suficiente.
Estoy cansada de sentir que me hago la victima cada vez que siento que me pasan a llevar y tomar todo a la ligera.
Estoy cansada de no ser lo suficientemente cuerda para notar que las cosas no estan bien.
Estoy cansada de sentir que le hago daño a la gente cada vez que digo lo que pienso.
Estoy cansada de sentir que a nadie le importa lo que confiezo.
Estoy cansada de sentir que pienso solo en mi, en mi, en mi, cuando no me doy el tiempo de ordenar mi cabeza ni mis sentimientos.
Estoy cansada de que la gente sufra cuando yo sufro.
Estoy cansada de engañarme a mi misma.
Estoy cansada de preocuparme por la gente que sufre con mi sufrimiento antes de preocuparme de mi propio sufrimiento.
Estoy cansada de escribir...
jueves, 24 de junio de 2010
domingo, 16 de mayo de 2010
And I, I don't know what to do, what to say
Ok, so it hasn't been a nice month... I'm all fine, I guess, but there are some issueas around me, family, friends... I just don't know what to do.
My mom got pregnant, at first she got crazy, so sad, confused, scared... and I hide my feelings... she's happy now, loving the baby inside her... and I'm happy with that.
Some of my friends have problems, they feel sad, insecure, they have low self-steem and as I depend of my friends' happiness I feel blue.
So I just don't know what to do or say to make them happy !!
I'm starting to think I'm not a good friend and that makes me feel miserable.
Dear friends: I LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH... never doubt about it... is just that sometimes I don't have the words to express my feelings and I don't know how to make you feel good, but I do love you trust me, you're everything to me.
My mom got pregnant, at first she got crazy, so sad, confused, scared... and I hide my feelings... she's happy now, loving the baby inside her... and I'm happy with that.
Some of my friends have problems, they feel sad, insecure, they have low self-steem and as I depend of my friends' happiness I feel blue.
So I just don't know what to do or say to make them happy !!
I'm starting to think I'm not a good friend and that makes me feel miserable.
Dear friends: I LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH... never doubt about it... is just that sometimes I don't have the words to express my feelings and I don't know how to make you feel good, but I do love you trust me, you're everything to me.
sábado, 27 de marzo de 2010
A good life... dreams, issues and having fun
Well... I was thinking that I described "good life" as dreams-issues-having fun...
Ok, it looks really simple, but is not that easy.
I have dreams:
I dream about traveling around the world, helping poor people and making little children's life so happy.
I dream about living in England, find a hottie-cute-intelectual-musician-writer-english man, marry him, have kids (2 boys and a girl) name one of the boys "Thomas" and let my husband choose the other two, live in a beautiful big house on England's country side, have a male cat called "Artie" and a San Bernardo (my children will name it).
Those are dreams, right? But what if I don't have the money or the opportunities to travel around the world and do that? what if I meet that english guy but he doesn't get marry...or what if he does but he doesn't want a San bernardo?
I guess dreaming feels good, but ruin your dreams suck.
Oh issues... a life has to have issues, that's how we grow up, that's how we learn, that's how we find ourselves... that's the beauty of issues.
but what if you're stubborn and you don't listen to the teaching?
And having fun... we can have fun all the time... it just depends of you. But what if having fun means hurting someone else, leaving behind your family, avoiding your friend's problems....?
"What if" that stupid phrase has ruined everything !! Now I'm scared of dream, issues and fun time... Don't want to fail.
Ok, it looks really simple, but is not that easy.
I have dreams:
I dream about traveling around the world, helping poor people and making little children's life so happy.
I dream about living in England, find a hottie-cute-intelectual-musician-writer-english man, marry him, have kids (2 boys and a girl) name one of the boys "Thomas" and let my husband choose the other two, live in a beautiful big house on England's country side, have a male cat called "Artie" and a San Bernardo (my children will name it).
Those are dreams, right? But what if I don't have the money or the opportunities to travel around the world and do that? what if I meet that english guy but he doesn't get marry...or what if he does but he doesn't want a San bernardo?
I guess dreaming feels good, but ruin your dreams suck.
Oh issues... a life has to have issues, that's how we grow up, that's how we learn, that's how we find ourselves... that's the beauty of issues.
but what if you're stubborn and you don't listen to the teaching?
And having fun... we can have fun all the time... it just depends of you. But what if having fun means hurting someone else, leaving behind your family, avoiding your friend's problems....?
"What if" that stupid phrase has ruined everything !! Now I'm scared of dream, issues and fun time... Don't want to fail.
martes, 23 de febrero de 2010
Smile
When you're smilin'
When you're smilin'
The whole world smiles with you
So just remember to smile smile smile,
And turn the world around.
Have you noticed the power of a simple smile?
Is MAGICAL !! Is amazing what you can do with a true-hearted little smile
You can cheer someone
You can light up someone's day
You can give love
You can give care
You can give happiness
You can give peace
You can give hope
And just with a warm and nice little smile :)
Isn't it beautiful?
So... what is that frown doing in your face ?? throw it away and get a Smile
When you're smilin'
The whole world smiles with you
So just remember to smile smile smile,
And turn the world around.
Have you noticed the power of a simple smile?
Is MAGICAL !! Is amazing what you can do with a true-hearted little smile
You can cheer someone
You can light up someone's day
You can give love
You can give care
You can give happiness
You can give peace
You can give hope
And just with a warm and nice little smile :)
Isn't it beautiful?
So... what is that frown doing in your face ?? throw it away and get a Smile
jueves, 31 de diciembre de 2009
Goodbye 2009
This year has been AMAZING, I really can't complain about anything... if I had bad moments... baah, forgot about it... I had fun too. I know I cried, I missed, I got angry... but that's what I call growing up, If I didn't have those hard moments I wouldn't be a strong girl.
I want to thank my family, I've been such an ass !! But they still loving me... that's when I realise my family will always be with me, no matter what happen. and I'll be there too, come what may, it's true I didn't choose my family but it can't be a better one... I'm so glad!!
Oh... FRIENDS !! I've made wonderful friends this year... I also discovered who are my real friends, the ones that were with me in sad and happy moments, the ones that accept me as I am... (Dear friends... you know the best description for me ^^).
Thank you so so so much...
Thepa: A pesar de las peleas y desacuerdos este año (habrán sido 100?) seguimos siendo amigas y encuetro que eso es maravillo :) Gracias por tu amistad, si te das cuenta va creciendo más fuerte con el tiempo. Te quiero Muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucho.
Panchi: Bueno, tu sabes que te readoro ! eres mi hermanita jaja aunque ya apenas nos juntamos debes saber que así lo siento. Te deseo lo mejor, eres inceríble :).
Luci: IMBÉCIL !! Gracias :) wnn... pasámos juntas xd, te has convertido en una persona muuuuuuuy importante para mi, eres una persona genial, he aprendido mucho de ti. Te quiero demaciado.
Shelke: Aaaaish... que defodme, zomoz hermanaz de coolar de paz ^^ jaja aay este año he comenzado a quererte demaciado, es verdad que hemos cambiado desde que eramos unos porotos, pero ahora estamos juntas denuevo y se que nuestra amistad seguirá creciendo. Te quiero :)
Majo: Como he dicho antes, eres una ángel... llegaste de la nada a mi, y has sido de verdad muy importante para, estoy muy agradecida de haberte conocido y espero que sigamos siendo amigas, siempre estaré ahí apra tí... ajja como tu fijiste quizas no me verás, pero tu sabes a que me refiero jaja... Gracias :)
Fraaaaan: Looooooca !! Este año he descubierto que hay una muy linda persona detrás de la niña de la secta satánica jajaja broma... En serio, este año he aprendido a conocerte, quizas no de l todo, pero si un poquito y estoy felíz por eso, eres muuuuy tierna :) y si, puedo decir que te quieroo :D
Rodrigo: Eres un amigo increíble, siempre tan preocupado, de verdad que te mereces el premio jaja te quiero muuuuucho :) eres genial.
Italo: jaja que ironía... le escribo al Italo jaja wnn... te tengo cariño, debo decirlo, eres un idioooooota!!! debería odiarte, pero no, te siento cmo a un hermano xd
Cata: Aaaaay hermosa... he descubierto que la amistad a distancia... si funciona!!! no es el mejor experimento que he hecho, porque de verdad te extraño ! Pero seguimos siendo amigas, y siento que la amistad es aún mas fuerte te reamodoro lindaa!!, eres una persona increíblemente asombrosa, sé que puedo confiar en ti y tu en mi... se que jamás has dudado de eso, recuerdas que somos "confidentes" ^^ aay eramos tan pequeñitas ajaja.
Persigan sus sueños y dejen volar sus más grandes deseos...
My favorite memories ...
January 2: My baby Brother birth... I couldn't believe it... everything was so so fast... Thank God he's a wonderful littlo boy... and I love him.
No date: I met Majo and Fran... I say no date 'cause it was something periodical haha Love you girls
After winter holidays: OMG I suck at dates !! ><>ch girls
June 7: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH MCFLY IN CHILE !!! JUST AMAZINGLY AWESOME ... really unforgetable ... My fav band, my lovers!! haha and with my friends .. I Love youuuuuu x (Talking about Danny, Tom, Harry and Dougie of course lol... not really, I love youuuu gilrs :) )
December 4: 5 colours!!! aaaaaaah haha amazing idea ;)
Omg... I could go on and on and on... I really enjoyed every trip to the beach or going out to the cine or just going to visit a friend's house :)
Well... All I can say is THANK YOU... can't find better words.
Can't hope for a better year... cause 2009 was a really good one, full of feeling as I like ^^ haha
I'll leave you with one of my favorite songs ... Mcfly of course lalala ^^
Iv'e got you
The world would be a lonely place
Without the one that puts a smile on your face
So hold me 'til the sun burns out
I won't be lonely when I'm down
'Cause I've got you to make me feel stronger
When the days are rough and an hour seems much longer
I never doubted you at all
If the stars collide, will you stand by and watch them fall?
(by and watch them fall)
So hold me 'til the sky is clear
And whisper words of love right into my ear
'Cause I've got you to make me feel stronger
When the days are rough and an hour seems much longer
Yeah when I've got you
Oh to make me feel better
When the nights are long they'll be easier together
Looking in your eyes
Hoping they won't cry
And even if they do
I'll be in bed so close to you
To hold you through the night
And you'll be unaware
But if you need me I'll be there
Yeah I've got you
Oh to make me feel stronger
When the days are rough and an hour seems much longer
Yeah when I've got you
To make me feel better
When the nights are long they'll be easier together
Yeah when I've got you...
Love Mari
PS: Loved my Spanglish lol
I want to thank my family, I've been such an ass !! But they still loving me... that's when I realise my family will always be with me, no matter what happen. and I'll be there too, come what may, it's true I didn't choose my family but it can't be a better one... I'm so glad!!
Oh... FRIENDS !! I've made wonderful friends this year... I also discovered who are my real friends, the ones that were with me in sad and happy moments, the ones that accept me as I am... (Dear friends... you know the best description for me ^^).
Thank you so so so much...
Thepa: A pesar de las peleas y desacuerdos este año (habrán sido 100?) seguimos siendo amigas y encuetro que eso es maravillo :) Gracias por tu amistad, si te das cuenta va creciendo más fuerte con el tiempo. Te quiero Muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucho.
Panchi: Bueno, tu sabes que te readoro ! eres mi hermanita jaja aunque ya apenas nos juntamos debes saber que así lo siento. Te deseo lo mejor, eres inceríble :).
Luci: IMBÉCIL !! Gracias :) wnn... pasámos juntas xd, te has convertido en una persona muuuuuuuy importante para mi, eres una persona genial, he aprendido mucho de ti. Te quiero demaciado.
Shelke: Aaaaish... que defodme, zomoz hermanaz de coolar de paz ^^ jaja aay este año he comenzado a quererte demaciado, es verdad que hemos cambiado desde que eramos unos porotos, pero ahora estamos juntas denuevo y se que nuestra amistad seguirá creciendo. Te quiero :)
Majo: Como he dicho antes, eres una ángel... llegaste de la nada a mi, y has sido de verdad muy importante para, estoy muy agradecida de haberte conocido y espero que sigamos siendo amigas, siempre estaré ahí apra tí... ajja como tu fijiste quizas no me verás, pero tu sabes a que me refiero jaja... Gracias :)
Fraaaaan: Looooooca !! Este año he descubierto que hay una muy linda persona detrás de la niña de la secta satánica jajaja broma... En serio, este año he aprendido a conocerte, quizas no de l todo, pero si un poquito y estoy felíz por eso, eres muuuuy tierna :) y si, puedo decir que te quieroo :D
Rodrigo: Eres un amigo increíble, siempre tan preocupado, de verdad que te mereces el premio jaja te quiero muuuuucho :) eres genial.
Italo: jaja que ironía... le escribo al Italo jaja wnn... te tengo cariño, debo decirlo, eres un idioooooota!!! debería odiarte, pero no, te siento cmo a un hermano xd
Cata: Aaaaay hermosa... he descubierto que la amistad a distancia... si funciona!!! no es el mejor experimento que he hecho, porque de verdad te extraño ! Pero seguimos siendo amigas, y siento que la amistad es aún mas fuerte te reamodoro lindaa!!, eres una persona increíblemente asombrosa, sé que puedo confiar en ti y tu en mi... se que jamás has dudado de eso, recuerdas que somos "confidentes" ^^ aay eramos tan pequeñitas ajaja.
Persigan sus sueños y dejen volar sus más grandes deseos...
My favorite memories ...
January 2: My baby Brother birth... I couldn't believe it... everything was so so fast... Thank God he's a wonderful littlo boy... and I love him.
No date: I met Majo and Fran... I say no date 'cause it was something periodical haha Love you girls
After winter holidays: OMG I suck at dates !! ><>ch girls
June 7: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH MCFLY IN CHILE !!! JUST AMAZINGLY AWESOME ... really unforgetable ... My fav band, my lovers!! haha and with my friends .. I Love youuuuuu x (Talking about Danny, Tom, Harry and Dougie of course lol... not really, I love youuuu gilrs :) )
December 4: 5 colours!!! aaaaaaah haha amazing idea ;)
Omg... I could go on and on and on... I really enjoyed every trip to the beach or going out to the cine or just going to visit a friend's house :)
Well... All I can say is THANK YOU... can't find better words.
Can't hope for a better year... cause 2009 was a really good one, full of feeling as I like ^^ haha
I'll leave you with one of my favorite songs ... Mcfly of course lalala ^^
Iv'e got you
The world would be a lonely place
Without the one that puts a smile on your face
So hold me 'til the sun burns out
I won't be lonely when I'm down
'Cause I've got you to make me feel stronger
When the days are rough and an hour seems much longer
I never doubted you at all
If the stars collide, will you stand by and watch them fall?
(by and watch them fall)
So hold me 'til the sky is clear
And whisper words of love right into my ear
'Cause I've got you to make me feel stronger
When the days are rough and an hour seems much longer
Yeah when I've got you
Oh to make me feel better
When the nights are long they'll be easier together
Looking in your eyes
Hoping they won't cry
And even if they do
I'll be in bed so close to you
To hold you through the night
And you'll be unaware
But if you need me I'll be there
Yeah I've got you
Oh to make me feel stronger
When the days are rough and an hour seems much longer
Yeah when I've got you
To make me feel better
When the nights are long they'll be easier together
Yeah when I've got you...
Love Mari
PS: Loved my Spanglish lol
lunes, 28 de diciembre de 2009
Jason Mraz
OMG !! Don't you love him ??
Well he's on my leading men list... I have like 20 guys in that list but anyways today I feel like writing about him.
Jason Mraz is a 32 year old guy (yeah maybe too old for me) american singer- songwriter ..he's amazing, believe me... his style includes folk, reggae, pop, jazz, rock and hip hop... is AWESOME
"I'm yours" "Lucky ft Colbie Caillat" "The Remedy (I won't worry)" and "Wordplay" are one of my favorites but I actually like them all .
Well if you want to know more about this Sex God visit his page it's hilarious www.jasonmraz.com
Thanks for reading
Love Mari x
domingo, 27 de diciembre de 2009
Disney
Yes, Disney... today I really feel like writing about it.
I think is amazing how Disney makes our lifes diferent... I mean can you imagine a life without Disney??!! Without all those magical histories and characters??
I would never have dreamed about Peter Pan asking me to join Neverland or I wouldn't had to close the closet 'cause my little bro was afraid of Randall... I'd never wanted to be a princess, I wouldn't have been afraid that my nose grow by telling lies and so many other things...
I love Disney since I saw Mickey Mouse and I'll never stop lovin' it.
it gaves magic, love, friendship, adventures, teachings and an endless childhood ...
Some of my favorite Disney Quotes:
-Tarzan: No matter where I go, you will always be my mother;Kala: And you will always be in my heart. (Tarzan)
-Peter: I do believe in fairies, I do, I do. (Peter Pan)
-Woody: Hey, Buzz! You're flying!;Buzz: This isn't flying. This is falling with style! (Toy Story)
-Timon and Pumbaa: Hakuna Matata...What a wonderful phrase. Hakuna Matata... Ain't no passing craze
- Remember: Always let your conscience be your guide (pinocchio)
- You think the only people who are people, are the people who look and think like you. But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger, you'll learn things you never knew you never knew. (Pocahontas)
- A dream is a wish your heart makes (Cinderella)
- Its kinda fun to do the impossible - Walt Disney
Thank you
Love, Mari x
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